Keep Going

Being honest with you, I don't even know where to start with this post. I have just been feeling so down lately, I can't remember what it's like to feel extremely happy. By the way, do you like my 2016 diary from Next. It's so sparkly and so me! Anyway, back to the post..

I have recently been put on some tablets for the treatment of vertigo. It is dizziness, feeling or being sick and having headaches/migraines. Vertigo can be caused by a problem with the way balance works in the inner ear or it can also be caused by problems in certain parts of the brain.

Having this has stopped me from doing a lot. Every day is different though, some days my dizziness is worse than others. I struggle to walk, drive and it's stopped me from going to college because I simply can't do anything without feeling dizzy.
I don't really like college anyway, so since Christmas I have been looking for jobs so I can get on with my life. I have applied for LOADS of different jobs, hoping that I'll get an interview.

The majority of the jobs I apply for turn me down before even getting an interview. It's gotten to the point now where I'm jealous of my friends for having jobs. I would actually love getting up early to go to work - yes, including the weekends. Am I crazy? I don't even know if I'll be able to work because of vertigo, but all I can do is find out. My doctor told me that my dizziness is meant to eventually sort itself out and I've got to try and get on with my everyday life. But it is so so hard. I hope that it'll sort itself out soon.

I would just really like a job, so I can earn my own money for my car, for myself and for my future! But, because I'm so unlucky, it will most probably take a while.
I don't like to post negative things on my blog as my blog is a positive, happy place to be! I just needed to express my feelings instead of keeping it all inside.

All I can tell myself is to keep that smile on my face, hope for the best and to keep going.


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